someone once told me that souls have to be built.. so why do i feel like i'm tearing mine to shreds? heh, 11:11.. make a wish.. i need strength.. i need to get over my faults.. i need the strength to change them. above any other wish - i wish for that. to save myself and others.

i cant even remember the last time i prayed, or what it was for.

another thing i would wish for...

if i died tomorrow, i wish i were content enough with my life to leave it. i look at the list of things i want to do in this life, and marvel at the fact that i havent even tried to do most of them. not even the easy ones.. i hear myself making excuses, why i dont just go and do them. i didnt have the time.. i didnt make the time. there's always something. school, work, money, obligations.. will i always say that? yes, there are things that must be done. but will i find myself always wishing and never acting?

some of the best advice comes from chocolate: "keep the promises you make to yourself"